As a writer, I’ve had fun developing exciting characters for my books. In my Next Move, You’re Dead trilogy, I had fun with Erebus, the diabolical villain who toys with people’s lives. I’ve had fun writing about dragons, vigilantes, and paranormal entities. However, the one story that was difficult for me to write was Hellfire’s Judgment. So often as writers, we are able to separate ourselves from our stories. But every once and a while we have a story that strikes a little too close to home. Hellfire’s Judgment is that story for me.
When I first published this book, it was a short story. I wanted to tell the story of a girl who is brutally raped and the rapist get’s away with his crime because of his powerful family. While it was a decent short story, the readers let me know they wanted more. I really didn’t want to dive back into it, but I figured if the readers wanted more I should give them what they wanted.
You are probably wondering why I was so reluctant to go deeper into this story. It’s because I would be forced to revisit my own painful memories of being a rape survivor. While I was not a child when I was violated, I still remember the feeling of helplessness and anger. It was those feelings I knew I would have to relive when making Hellfire’s Judgment into a full-length novel.
So, I opened my word doc and started typing. It was an overwhelming experience for me With each click on my keyboard the words seemed to flow from somewhere deep inside of me. I cried as Sherry had to face her attacker in court. I cried as her family faced the threats from those tied to the attackers powerful family. However, with each word, I felt my own pain and anger steadily losing its grip on my soul.
By the time I had written the last paragraph, that dark stain on my soul, though not completely erased, was no longer controlling my emotions. I felt empowered and free. The image of the man who had attacked me was no longer haunting me in my dreams.
I’ve always read how we should write of things we know. I just never realized how by doing so, it can also heal a pain we have shoved down deep inside of us.
I was thrilled when after I released the full-length version of Hellfire’s Judgment as seeing the reaction from the readers. It always makes you feel good as a writer when you’re able to bring the reader into the story and let them feel your pain. If you think Hellfire’s Judgment would be a book you’d like to read, you can find it on Amazon.
Here is a book trailer video I made for Hellfire’s Judgment